tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post1531329060038002479..comments2023-10-25T04:27:12.872-07:00Comments on Traces of Ayden: Terrified of the 2nd lightning strikeLindsayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07289549963275047672noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-47810716396562745912010-06-29T17:31:50.846-07:002010-06-29T17:31:50.846-07:00I'll be praying for you tonight. It is hard a...I'll be praying for you tonight. It is hard and I'm a few weeks behind you. The fears are so hard to shake. <br /><br />I'm sorry you are there too and I'm also very sorry for those friends of yours who lost their little boy this week.<br /><br />Hugs, thoughts, and prayers to you all this evening.Michehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03202104148225914041noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-17706453176338644372010-06-26T23:46:29.040-07:002010-06-26T23:46:29.040-07:00I hope that lightning never strikes you twice. I ...I hope that lightning never strikes you twice. I understand that fear - I have friends who have been through the same loss as you, and I struggled with infertility. I never had that blissful ignorance...and I've struggled every day, afraid to really hope that we are beyond the danger zone, and terrified that my miracle will be stolen away from me. And then I work to set aside my fears and live in the now...never fully certain I should trust that it will be okay, but hoping that my fears are simply just fears. Like you, I always feel as if I'm waiting for "the other shoe to drop" - as if the bad news HAS to be just around the corner. I can only say from my experience, that nagging feeling crops up less often and less intensely as time passes, but I'm not sure it will ever go away. I think the challenge is learning to live with that and still experience your joy! Don't let the threat of lightening striking during a storm darken the days of blue skies...and maybe one day, you can again appreciate the beauty of a storm without fearing the lightning is aiming for you. - TkeysMehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18268690872654358064noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-83891072800511845222010-06-24T21:48:40.434-07:002010-06-24T21:48:40.434-07:00As other posters have said, your feelings are 100%...As other posters have said, your feelings are 100% legitimate and understandable purely from a maternal perspective. It's paralyzing and overwhelming to imagine the many, many ways our children can suffer - or how we could lose them (and personally, I put no stock in "odds are..." reassurances). But the difference is that most of us can *think* about it...and then shut those thoughts down. You LIVED it. So I'd never attempt any words of wisdom or advice or perspective...because how could you NOT feel this way? I'll just pray that, somehow, you gradually move towards a place where you can make peace with these feelings. God is there for all of it, patiently and lovingly walking this road with you. And I also hope that in the meantime you are gentle with yourself and don't deny the need to feel however you need to, in whatever moment you're in.{ J }https://www.blogger.com/profile/01686504251791442880noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-33817745957147925262010-06-24T18:29:00.193-07:002010-06-24T18:29:00.193-07:00Oh Lindsay....I hate this all for you....and total...Oh Lindsay....I hate this all for you....and totally get the slim to none odds--in fact, it makes me cringe to hear my OB tell me that what happened was a fluke...even though it was...it doesn't mean I can't have another one.<br /><br />In fact, what happened to us DID have the odds of being struck by lightning TWICE...it DOES happen.<br /><br />And it's only natural to be scared. It doesn't mean that you aren't giving it to God--it just means that you know that having faith in God means that it doesn't always work out the way we beg for it to--and we can survive through His grace.<br /><br />But having faith in God doesn't mean we believe we are immune to pain--and when you are already hurting, it's only natural to be afraid of hurting more.<br /><br />Always, always, always lifting you and Jeremy and Collen in prayer and love!!!Lorihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01828552745708177768noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-56703035408049302712010-06-24T17:59:00.520-07:002010-06-24T17:59:00.520-07:00Praying. I know how it is! I fear too. I'm afr...Praying. I know how it is! I fear too. I'm afraid of losing another child and I pray often that God will bring us safely to the end.Hollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15431384515813384025noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-31310512297524591502010-06-24T10:13:03.896-07:002010-06-24T10:13:03.896-07:00will pray for you!will pray for you!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04078041154319272042noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-42233972264164577492010-06-24T10:08:49.859-07:002010-06-24T10:08:49.859-07:00I'm praying for you Lyndsey! It is so hard w...I'm praying for you Lyndsey! It is so hard when we aren't in control but we SO want to me and then with the fear you face. Hugs and Prayers!!Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11114096767190965587noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-28455007736545694762010-06-24T07:32:48.826-07:002010-06-24T07:32:48.826-07:00Lindsay,
You are doing exactly what EVERY mother d...Lindsay,<br />You are doing exactly what EVERY mother does whether she has lost a child or not, and that is worry! I don't care how much faith a person has in God, that nagging fear is always in the back of your mind. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers each and every day. I just feel in my heart that everything is and will be fine with this beautiful little boy.<br /><br />Sincerely,<br />MK HuckoMaryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09612995181393381956noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-46953800107869531022010-06-24T06:43:47.474-07:002010-06-24T06:43:47.474-07:00just said a prayer for you and Jeremy.just said a prayer for you and Jeremy.the.bain.family.https://www.blogger.com/profile/13707805501932765085noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-12280642197411194442010-06-24T06:09:14.185-07:002010-06-24T06:09:14.185-07:00Oh dear ((hugs)). I can absolutely relate to a lot...Oh dear ((hugs)). I can absolutely relate to a lot of what you've written today and I have not lost a child. For me, its anxiety. Life for me was so much easier before I knew of all the tradgedies this world offers. I constantly think about one of my children dying, getting cancer etc etc. My niece died of SIDS 11.1.09 and I always think if it can happen to my brother...it can happen to me. I understand your fear, even if its for different reasons. Unfortunatley a virtual hug is all I have to offer. I guess all these fears comes with the territory of completly loving someone so much your whole heart belongs to them. <br /><br />((hugs))Christinahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15008215781734002655noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-47504807963172427502010-06-24T06:05:22.470-07:002010-06-24T06:05:22.470-07:00It is so hard, and you are right; you can drive yo...It is so hard, and you are right; you can drive yourself nuts. Loss takes that innocence and trust from you, and Satan knows he can just set right into that emptiness. After Nick and Sophie died, I tried to believe that nothing else bad could ever happen; there were doubts and fear... And those inched their way in. When we lost Alex, I thought my heart was going to implode. There was nothing left.<br /><br />When I got pregnant with Bobby and Maya, I did my best to just give my fears to God and to cast my doubt away.<br /><br />You are doing a great job.Michelehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17681333723382119281noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-1937007922801326032010-06-24T05:18:29.596-07:002010-06-24T05:18:29.596-07:00Praying for you.Praying for you.deehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11260449313842583811noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-59018041269637856802010-06-24T03:19:28.196-07:002010-06-24T03:19:28.196-07:00I'm an avid reader as well. I have not comment...I'm an avid reader as well. I have not commented before but I pray for you daily and I think of you often. I cannot begin to imagine having to move on after something like this happens, but you are doing it. Its making you stronger and although you don't know why God allowed this to happen, you are accepting it. I know it cannot be easy. Please just know that you have so many people praying for you! I pray that the rest of your pregnancy continues to progress smoothly, you have a good labor and delivery, and little Collen is healthy and strong!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-80609882763597548372010-06-24T01:56:16.060-07:002010-06-24T01:56:16.060-07:00Oh Lindsay, my heart aches for you and the fear fe...Oh Lindsay, my heart aches for you and the fear feelings you carry with you. To a certain degree all mothers experience the same ones. Having lived the reality of a mother's greatest fear with your beloved Ayden you know what others only fear. I think the clarity in the way you express these fears will ultimately help you to cope with them. Many of us are simply unable to articulate how we really feel and therefore deal with them. Your openess is a gift to those of us who read your blog. Thank you sweet lady. Sending you love and uplifting prayers from across the pond always. xxMama Miahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16936124009166492304noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1796487427937375263.post-15632644048318749122010-06-23T21:38:26.824-07:002010-06-23T21:38:26.824-07:00Lyndsey,
You do not know me, but I want you to kn...Lyndsey, <br />You do not know me, but I want you to know that my family and I are praying for you on a daily basis. I came across your blog a couple of months ago on my neice's bloglist, and from my very first visit, my heart was just captivated. You are a brave and Godly woman, who is truly living for His glory. You are speaking for the hearts of every Mommy in the world when you voice your fears, and you have such an amazing way with words. I want to thank you for blessing the world with your faith and your wisdom. I will continue to lift you and your family up in prayer, and look forward to the day that I can meet your precious Ayden, and his little brother, in our heavenly home. Before having my daughter, I lost twins during pregnancy, and look forward to the day that I can hold them both in my arms. What a wonderful day that will be when our entire family will stand hand-in-hand singing His praises. We will be in constant prayer for you and your family. <br /><br />Your Sister in Christ, <br />Shay from KentuckyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com