The Nightmare Scare

I'm playing catch up with my blog right now.  Just trying to get it back up-to-date with all that has been going on.

I am now 27 weeks  (28 on Tuesday) pregnant with Miss Charlotte Brooke.  It's crazy that I have 2 full months left.  That's it.  And the poor child has a lamp, a shelf, 2 head bands, and boxes of hand-me-downs.  And that's it.  We HAVE GOT to get to work on her room.  She will be rooming in with us for the first few months, so we'll get there.  It's still so strange to think that a little girl will be entering our lives soon....

About 2 weeks ago, I had a terrible dream.  I woke up at 4:30 in tears.  In my dream, I had gone to the hospital for an ultrasound.  I didn't see the ultrasound, but a doctor called in with the results and used some big medical terms that I didn't understand.  Then my midwife explained what those words meant  - Charlotte's kidneys were failing, and she would not survive after birth.  Needless to say, I was a wreck.  Babies with 2 vessel cords are at a risk for kidney and heart issues, so you can imagine the places my mind was going after this dream.  So, at 4:30, I texted my midwife....telling her that I was incredibly sorry if I woke her up, but that if it was at all possible for me to come in and get a quick look at Charlotte, I would be beyond grateful.  Being the wonderful person that she is, I got a text at 8 am saying for me to come in and we would see what we could do.

I went in that afternoon, and as the day went on, I began to feel irrational and foolish.  It was just a dream.  However, I couldn't just let it go.  Everyone was so gracious and completely understood my fear and concern.  I told my midwife that I just needed to see that she does in fact have 2 kidneys that appear to be working.  So, I went in for a very brief ultrasound - I think it lasted 2 minutes max - and my fears were relieved. Two kidneys.  Enough amniotic fluid.  A growing baby - she looked twice the size she was last time - who was hanging out and enjoying herself.

I was instructed to relax and stop having bad dreams.  I have definitely slept better since that day.

So thankful for an understanding OB practice where they tolerate my paranoia.

We go for another ultrasound on June 26th for a longer session to check growth and development.  I will have frequent ultrasounds from this point on to measure Charlotte's growth since 2 vessel cord babies tend to be smaller, and we could be looking at IUGR (growth restriction).  So far, I continue to measure on target, so I'm hoping that that means her growth is also where it should be.  Thank you for continuing to pray for Charlotte.  I grow more and more excited every day to meet this little girl - our unexpected blessing. :)

1 comment:

  1. Oh bless your heart, so sorry you had that dream. I was the same way with my pregnancies, very nervous. I'm glad you went in and eased your mind. Also so glad you have wonderful people taking care of you!
    God bless you! Kelley