What I miss...

I am currently in that 2nd phase of grief over the loss of my Dad.
I think it is because the holidays are past and the craziness of all that has slowed down. Life is now back to "normal" but definitely not normal. The moments in my day when I miss him most are the afternoons....when I would either call him or get a call from him....and the evenings when I would likely call again to ask my mom something and hear him say, "Rita....it's your eldest...". I miss his contagious laugh and smile. I miss the comfort of his hugs and the reassurance of his voice. Most of all, I miss having my DAD....I miss that connection. I miss being Daddy's girl and knowing that even when I didn't understand myself, he did. I am still taking it day by day, and if I am honest with myself....I am really struggling. To say I miss him doesn't do the pain justice. It's just hard. The one thing that brings me joy is that he and Ayden are together....making up for lost time. What a beautiful image...


  1. I know what you are feeling my mom died on Thanksgiving day. She was 90 years old and we were expecting her death, but it has caused me to grieve way more than I was expecting. My prayers are with you.

  2. Praying, praying, praying for your precious heart.

  3. My thoughts are with you and your family, Lindsay.
    God be with you, Kelley

  4. I know just how you feel, I just kept pretending Mama was on a trip or at my cousins in Fl. for the first couple of months, now it's been four months, and it has hit me like a freight train, I think it's so hard because they've ALWAYS been there our entire lives, and suddenly they're gone...in my thoughts and prayers...