The past few weeks have felt non-stop. Literally....every single minute of the day has felt consumed. Between chasing Collen around/playing with him, getting the new job squared away, doing everyday household stuff, tending our garden and canning/freezing what's coming out of it, visiting friends, packing for vacation (going to the beach Thurs - Sun.)....church...errands...bills...etc.
Time has just escaped me.
And I apologize to my faithful few readers....if you're still there...stick with me. Don't give up on me yet.
I can see a crash coming soon. If I don't get a break, soon....and just breathe....it could get ugly. I felt it today. Pressure...the busyness of getting "it all" done....it takes a toll and I found myself folding blankets and almost near tears. And I said to myself, "What in the world is wrong with you?! You're just going on vacation, and Collen is going with you!" I realize now that it was just because I was tired. I am tired. But, I keep pushing on. That's what mom's do right? And I do it with a smile on my face because there's nowhere else I'd rather be and nothing else I'd rather be doing.
I hope you are all doing well and enjoying your summer. I'm dreading the end of summer....and the first day of school....and of course it's on August 25th. Please, God, let them choose another day to start school on next year. I have no idea how the first day is going to go, and that scares me. But....I'll worry about that a little later.
I have a whole blog I want to write about the loss of a child....and just what it does to you and how it stays with you.....and just how the big picture is changed, forever. I have to get my thoughts together on that one, but it's been on my heart for a while now.
Ok....off to bed. Sorry I was all over the place on this one. Definitely feeling scattered and frazzled these days. :)