"If I could fall into the sky..."

Collen and I were meandering around the grocery store the other day, and a song began to play. I had heard this song so, so many times. I knew the words by heart, and I began to sing it to Collen. Then, I started to listen to the words I was singing to him....

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass

And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Making a way

Through the crowd

And I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder....

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

'Cause you know I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could Just see you

Tonight

It's always times like these

When I think of you

And I wonder

If you ever

Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong

And I don't belong

Living in your

Precious memories

'Cause I need you

And I miss you

And now I wonder....

If I could fallInto the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

'Cause you know

I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

Tonight

And I, I

Don't want to let you know

I, I

Drown in your memory

I, I

Don't want to let this go

I, I

Don't....

Making my way downtown

Walking fast

Faces pass

And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead

Just making my way

Making a way

Through the crowd

And I still need you

And I still miss you

And now I wonder....

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass us by

'Cause you know

I'd walkA thousand miles

If I could Just see you...

If I could fall

Into the sky

Do you think time

Would pass me by

'Cause you know

I'd walk

A thousand miles

If I could

Just see you

If I could

Just hold you

Tonight

Right there in the grocery store, I was thinking...."This sums up my grief....right here in this song." Walking through life, staring blankly ahead, holding onto precious memories of my baby boy. I still need him. I still miss him. And knowing that I'd do absolutely anything to see him, hold him, kiss him again.

A moment of clarity, in the produce aisle.