I survived

I made it through the first day back at work....with students. It was such a nerve-wracking experience, but I don't think you would have known it from just seeing me or talking to me. My close friends knew how nervous I was and that I was near the breaking point, but I never let anyone else see it.

I think I'm going to have some good classes. I've taught a lot of them before. I had them as sophomores, so it was nice and comforting to see some familiar faces. I almost lost it in first period when I heard a comment a student made. I don't think she knew I heard her, but I said, "It's so nice to have you guys back in my classroom again." Very quietly, she said, "It's good to have you back."

Going back to work was such a frightening thought to me. I almost didn't go back. I wasn't sure I was ready, but I knew I couldn't just sit around the house and stay in bed for another semester. Not that I was doing those things out of depression. It helped me to be able to take my time and go at my own speed. Now, I'm at the mercy of someone else's time schedule, which is good, but of course it's stressful to me right now. It'll be good to get back into the routine though.

It was strange to walk down the halls this morning, mingling amongst the students, hearing, "Mrs. Jones is back! It's Mrs. Jones! Hey Mrs. Jones" I don't feel like anything special at all, but they seem to think I am. I hope I don't ever disappoint them.

Day two tomorrow....thank God for Friday.



  1. Lindsay,

    I am glad to hear that you had a good first day. You are a special person and the kids are lucky to have you as their teacher. We continue to pray for you and Jeremy! Hope you continue to have good days at school.

  2. I'm so glad your first day back with students went well. You continue to be in my prayers!! Thanks for posting an update. You can almost hear your strength in your words, if that makes sense! :)

  3. I am so glad the first day is behind you. You can hear the relief in your words as well. I hope it gets easier day by day and becomes a comfort and distraction for you. I am proud of you!

  4. Lindsay,
    Sounds like you had a good first day back. As a high school teacher also, I know that my students have such an impact on me and I love being around them! May this semester be extra special and know that I think and pray for you often even though we do not know one another. Take care, Courtney

  5. That is excellent that you had a great first day back! First days are always my least favorite! I pray that this trimester is a good one! :o) Sounds like you a have a fantastic set of students! What a blessing!

  6. Hey Lindsay,

    Let me just say: YOU ARE SPECIAL, regardless of what happened to you. I have a good memory and there's ALWAYS been something special about you. After all, I nominated YOU to be a Debuette b/c I thought you had that something special... poise, grace, kindness, etc... (if you had Kelly J.'s and my experience, some of those girls didn't make us feel to special though, haha)!

    I am so very proud of you for making it through your first day back at school. You can do it! God's with you every step of the way. We'll pray specifically about your return to school. Hang in there sweetie!
    Love, Lauren

  7. When everything around us feels as if it is falling apart the routine of a daily schedule helps to get us from one place to the next. It can often feel alien and very uncomfortable but it is very important for your emotional framework. I am so glad that you made it through the first difficult days. You are an amazing and brave woman Lindsay! Thinking of you often xxx

  8. You are something very special to me:)

  9. I just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about you. You're in my prayers. Lots of hugs!

    Stacey from CA

  10. You are totally special!! It's good that you are back at school. It will help to take your mind off things. It's always beneficial to stay busy when you have things going on. Just try not to overload yourself. If you need me, please let me know. I am always here for you!

  11. Going back can be tough. I'm glad you survived it!!