The Ruling

Since losing Ayden, I've known this day was coming. The day we got the results....the verdict....our answer to "why?" However, if you're the parent of a SIDS baby, you know there is no answer to that question.

The ruling was as we suspected: SIDS

He was perfect, healthy, happy, but just too precious for this world.

I don't know that I'll ever look at the reports we were given. I didn't need a medical examiner to tell me my child was perfect. I already knew that. That makes the sting worse....there was nothing wrong, yet he's still gone. He was everything a parent hopes for in a child....the picture of health....the happiest, most easy-going baby....but he's still gone.

As we've continued to say, we won't understand all of this here. But one day, once we're in Heaven with him....holding him again....somehow it'll all be made clear. By then it won't even matter. We're blessed to know we still have a future with him. Our hope is that those who don't know if they're assured of that promise will seek new life in Christ in order to attain eternal life with our God and our loved ones who are waiting for us there.



  1. It is the week of answers for us both. Funny how as a parent you just already "know" what takes doctors 7-8months to tell us.

    Thinking of you

  2. Lifting you up and missing your sweet little baby boy with you...I can't wait to meet him! Hugs!!!!

  3. and what a wonderful day that will be...when you get to see him again in Heaven. I can't wait to meet him myself, when I get up there. What a wonderful thought.
    PS. watch the mail soon

  4. I'm sorry you don't have anything beyond what you already knew.

  5. Continuing to pray for you guys!

  6. Been thinking and praying for you and your husband.

  7. I still can not wrap my mind around the fact that I put a perfectly HEALTHY 8 month old baby to sleep and he was gone in the morning. SUID and SIDS makes no sense to me. You find yourself going over everything over and over trying to see if you missed something. Thoughts and prayers go up for you and your family daily.