Oh, y'all pray for me.
Collen rolled to his tummy today during his nap. Most days, his morning nap is when I'm able to get a shower in and possibly do a little cleaning. Recently, Collen has been rolling to his side before falling asleep, but today, something said, just watch him while he sleeps....just to be sure. I'm so glad I listened. He rolled to his stomach, but he kept his left arm underneath him (he can't figure out how to get it out of the way, yet.). I took a deep breath and wondered if I should roll him back. I figured I'd better not, so I just watched....every single breath he took.
I have been terrified of this milestone. Collen hasn't particularly enjoyed being on his stomach, which we didn't argue with at all. We found comfort in the fact that he disliked it so much. However, we knew that, eventually, this milestone would come. And here we are, almost 6 months in, and he's doing it. Luckily, he has great head control. Once he rolled to his tummy while sleeping today, he turned his head, so that's a good sign.
Obviously, I'm scared. If he never rolled over, I'd be happy, but I know that isn't possible....nor is it realistic. I'm going to have to watch him more closely in the coming weeks just until he really gets the hang of it. And I'll just continue to take deep breaths and praying, praying, praying.
So, y'all pray for me....that I don't have a nervous breakdown. Also, I'm speaking this Saturday at a women's conference of sorts at Jeremy's parents church in our hometown. I'm incredibly nervous. It'll be the first time I've told our story to a group of people.....and I have no idea where to go with it. I have ideas about where I want to go with it....but just not sure what my central message will be. I want them to walk away with something, but standing up there and talking about Ayden...and getting through it...is all I can focus on right now. It'll evolve into something, and God will be in whatever I do. I know He's taking care of all of this right now....just need His strength.