Little Mouse, I Love You

My parents gave Collen a book for Valentine's Day called Little Mouse, I Love You.

I was reading it to him tonight before bed, and it came to one part....

When they had passed by the field, Grandma and Little Mouse came to the

duck pond, where there was a lot of quacking and splashing as a brood of baby ducklings

scrambled after their mother. "Those ducklings will grow up one day, won't they?" sad Little Mouse.

"Do you think their mommy will forget them when she has new ones

to look after?" "No," said Grandma. "She will never forget a single one!"

"Just like the way you will never forget me!" said Little Mouse

As I sat reading to Collen, I thought about him as a young boy, beginning to ask me questions about his brother. I thought about his friends, teachers, and strangers who will look at us and think Collen is our first child. I thought about how after we lost Ayden, Collen came along....we were blessed with a new miracle, but our first miracle will never be forgotten. No matter how many children we go on to have, even though he isn't here, he will always be with us.

In that moment, I felt so close to both of my boys.