Nothing much to report....

Not much to report here lately. This week NC has been hit by the gross leftovers of a tropical depression. It has been rainy and windy for the past 2 days. Not just your typical rain. Sideways rain. It feels like the onset of a hurricane, but it never gets worse. The bad thing about these types of storms is that they are slooooow. Hurricanes, although they do more damage most of the time, at least come and go pretty quickly.

Roads have been closed and school has been delayed. Poor Gracie hasn't been out of her pen since Tuesday night. I feel so bad looking out the window and knowing she's all curled up in her doghouse trying to keep warm. I'm miserable for her. I wish we could let her out, but then she'd get even more wet and cold, and if she ever got badly sick we would never forgive ourselves.

Our backyard can't keep up, so there are pools of water everywhere. I wish I had taken pictures. We needed the rain, but it's never fun when it comes in this way.

Jeremy was off of work for Veteran's Day, so we enjoyed parts of the day together. Since it was rainy and windy, our satellite was out. So, he spent a lot of time playing xbox, and I caught up on tv shows online. We did venture out in the rain to have lunch with Lauren and then to have dinner with Candi, Curt and their two kids. I haven't had food that good in a long time. We will join the Tuckers for dinner any night....

Today, the rain continued. I had to venture out this morning to pick up more (yes...more) paperwork for being out of work. It's so frustrating. This now means I have to go back to my doctor, again, to get her to fill out the paperwork. I don't like doing that because I feel like such a bother. But, they said Dr. and I guess it looks better if the same one fills it all out, so I will impose yet again. I hope this will be the last round of paperwork. Then, when I go back to work, I'll be filling out more. Endless cycle....

I went to work today just to check on some things. I sure do miss my kids and my co-workers. I am so excited about my classes next semester, but scared at the same time. My first period works out well because they are students I've taught in the past. This means that if I need to take a moment and break down, then I can, and they will 100% understand. It'll start my day off well to know I have their support. I'm not used to having a lot of attention put on me. However, now I show up to school and as soon as one student sees me, I hear 10 other "Mrs. Jones!! Mrs. Jones!!" I find myself wanting to run into the nearest room to hide because it's so strange to be so known. It's nice to know I'm missed and loved. It has helped me to heal a little.

Tomorrow Jeremy's football team goes to their first round of the playoffs. So, I will be journeying back to our hometown to watch their game. Hopefully the rain will have cleared up by then. It's so weird to go back home because it feels so foreign. It used to be home.....but it just isn't the same.

I hope everyone has had a good week. As usual, mine has been up and down. I miss Ayden so much every minute of every day. At some moments, I can think of him and smile. At other moments, I can't catch my breath.

Continuing to just hold on.