I hope no one took offense to my earlier post.  I really do enjoy hearing how Ayden has touched your life or changed your perspective.  It shows me that God's purpose for him is working even beyond his life here on this earth.  

Please understand that I am experiencing all sorts of  emotions and I realize every single one of them is normal.  I do not get angry when people tell me how they have been touched....it just runs me through all the emotions each time.

Keep sharing with us.....it encourages us.


  1. hi lindsay!! well i know u dont know me but i met ur son i mean rita showed me his pic!! i understand how u feel and what uawant to mean and trust me thst is not offensive.. u lost one of the most valious person i n ur life... but im sure God will be with u forever... i loved see ayden videos and pic,.. he looks soooo cute and i really liked ayden cuz he looked like my cousin son and he has the same name so whe ur mom showed me his pic i told her wow my cousin looked like him when he was a baby and has the smae name and here at my home knew him just in pic and they sais that hes cute.. congratulations!!!!
    i hope ur feeling a little better god bless u

    loves and blessings

  2. Oh please don't worry about offending others at this time. You post what you need to post when you need to post it. I'm a blogger too and have blogged through many horrible times. It's therapeutic. When you've lost a baby you don't necessarily want to be anyone else's rock or source of strength or inspiration. You just want to turn back the clock and have your baby back. My heart hurts for you and your husband. Ayden is such a beautiful boy.

  3. Lindsay,

    If only those touching stories could bring Ayden back...Your heart is empty. A heart filled with joy once again seems unimaginable. This is your time to grieve. So write, scream, cry, vent with no worries of offending. Sharing your emotions in such an honest way is not only therapeutic for you, but helps us carry your hurts to the throne of God. We are your sisters in Christ and we are here to pray you through this storm.

    Love in Christ,

  4. Thank you for sharing. I'm still praying for you guys. A few posts ago you talked about how people are saying that God isn't the author of death and stuff like that...and I'm so glad that you said that it IS God who numbers our days, including sweet Ayden's. God IS the One in control and nothing happens apart from Him (or Him allowing it). What a comfort to know that HE is the One orchestrating our whole entire lives and somehow, someway, this will turn out for your good and His glory.

    I'm so sorry you have to be going through this though. I wish no parent had to ever experience the loss of a child. Know that people are praying for you and grieving with you (as much as we can).


  5. Lindsay,
    Thank you for sharing. Don't worry about offending anyone right now. This IS your time to mourn. DO that. Do whatever it takes to pour your aching heart out. I pray that one day, stories of how Ayden touched the world do bring you comfort, but I completely understand that right now, they don't. You are aching and hurting in a way humans were never intended to hurt. Take your time and just let it out. You are a shining example through your HONESTY and OPENNESS.

    1 Peter 5:10
    But the God of all Grace, after you have suffered a while, will make you perfect, established, strengthened and settled.

  6. You don't know me, but I wanted to let you know that the Eastern Shore of Maryland is praying for you!

  7. Of course I am one you don't know, but I wouldn't worry about being offensive to anyone. You have lost your pride and joy! No one understands what you are going through unless they have been through the same. I personally never have, but known other people. All I can do is put myself in your shoes, and I can't even start to imagine what you are going through or have been in the last couple days/weeks/months. I am glad you are posting memories, that is such a great idea. I hope your dreams/wishes come true real soon and your family is blessed with another child just like Ayden. you and your family have every right to be mad, upset, and vent. God be with you, and your family. We are all here for you, and I wish it was for different reasons. Take care.

  8. In my thoughts and prayers.

    A stranger in far away India,

  9. Everything you feel and every word you say and every thought you think is right for you. There is no "right way" right now. You are hurting. So just be. And pray.

  10. Certainly no offense should be taken by ANYTHING that you have to say as a grieving mother. You have every right to post whatever you want to post. Your story and your sweet baby Ayden have definitely touched so many people, but I completely understand that you wish it didn't have to. Your faith amazes me! You and Jeremy have been, and will continue to be, on my mind and in my prayers.

    God Bless,

  11. Lindsay, As I have said in a previous post, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I could not be as gracious and graceful during this time as you have been. You would not be human, or a mother if you did not have these feelings. It is normal that you would be angry at times, think how unfair it is most of the time. While we all know and trust that God has a purpose and a perfect reason for this, you and everyone else with you totally wish it didn't have to happen. I cannot explain or convey to you how sad and empty it has made me feel and I have never officially met you. I have observed you in church with Ayden, but have never talked to you. As I said before in a previous comment, I just remember how precious he was (now 3 sunday's ago) as you sat with him in church just across the aisleway from us. He was talking and cooing and so sweet. I could not help but watch him. Nobody blames you for the way that you are feeling, and more importantly we all understand. I do pray that very soon your days will begin to get a little easier. I cannot fathom how hard it must be.